So I’ve always been interested in programming and game programming in particular. I followed LD for so long, but never actually did something. That’s something I really want to change.
For … reasons, I couldn’t do any programming for years, so I’m very much out of practice. Also, due to health reasons, I can’t concentrate for very long. It might seem basic to you, but if I can think about one particular thing for an hour, it’s a win in my book. Basically, the brain was on vacation for a few years, and I’m trying to get it back into shape.
Actually, as I proofread the last paragraph, fuck it. Just… fuck it, I’ll just say it like it is. I’ve been a pretty good and clever computer science person for all my life, until I somehow became a massive alcoholic. For the last 8 or so years, I’ve been trying to drink myself into an early grave, and boy, was I trying hard. I didn’t succeed however, got sober earlier this year and now I’m at a point where I want to get my brain back. I’m much better in many aspects, but I’m still not able to concentrate for long, I just lose focus quickly and if I do, it’s all over, I can’t get back into it. Also, I just didn’t do any programming for a long time, I want to become my old self again. Having to look up stuff every minute is really getting on my nerves.
So, what to do? My goal is to be in shape for the next LD. So I’ll download Unity (pretty excited about this tool, let’s see how it works), give myself a week and try to work on something for at least 4 hours every day. 4 hours may not seem much to you, but for me and my battered and bruised brain it’s pretty ambitious. Let’s see how it goes. Also, I’ll be documenting my journey here, I’m thinking it might give me some motivation by being accountable for something. I’ve been ashamed enough for two lifetimes, I don’t need to fail again in front of game developers
No ideas yet, but I’ll come up with something while downloading hopefully. It doesn’t have to be great, it just has to be something playable for now. Enough talking, let’s do this.